Today, I have the annual gyno appointment I made towards the end of September. I hope everything is okay — it wasn’t last year.
At last year’s exam, my pap came back as abnormal, and showed signs of abnormal cells called dysplasia. They are considered to be precancerous. My ob-gyn later performed a colposcopy then recommended that I undergo a LEEP precedore — Loop Electrosurgical Excision Procedure. It’s a treatment that prevents cervical cancer.
After last year’s procedure and seeing how my mammogram came back clear during last year’s annual exam, I would never have expected this year’s mammography results. I always thought my cancer risk would remain in my cervix. Dumb, I know.
Also, after last year’s LEEP procedure, I should have had my IUD removed. I should have lost weight. I should have minimized my stress. I should have adopted a healthier diet. I should have adopted a regular work out schedule. I should have never…
Boy, the regrets weigh heavy on me. I shouldn’t dwell on them too much, but at the same time, they could serve as a powerful reminder to someone like me, like I was last year.